This day 7 years ago I was feeding my baby bear. A big old ball of a baby that ate, ate & ate some more. I wondered how I would ever be able to produce enough milk for such a hungry bear! My boy bear came out ready to grow and grow he did.

He is such a sweet boy. Still so cuddly. I count my blessings every time I get a cuddle as I know before I know it they will outgrow them.

He is still a crazy daredevil. Still convinced he is invincible. I am starting to loose count of the scares.

I stupidly made aqs physical appointment for this morning and even more stupidly got a tetanus shot for myself. So aq got her shots to catch her up before school and I got to get really sick. Which was not how I wanted to start my Bears day. More on that later.

So the day started pretty nice. Little Bear made a nest next to my bed so he could sleep next to me. He has been waking and coming into the bed again so we came to an agreement that he could make a nest so he could be next to me without keeping me awake all night. So mature and wise in so many respects he still has his little boy moments which I cherish. So when he woke up it was a glowing face that popped up right next to me waking me immediately with “Mumma! Mumma your little 7 year old HuggieBear is awake” Oh I want to remember that glowing face forever. It was so beautiful to wake up to. He opened his presents and was very pleased with them. I then said that they could go down and eat birthday cupcakes for breakfast. (I made them the night before on special request) The cupcakes were a huge success. (Hurray finally got those figured out!) Unfortunately they only bought me about 10mins more sleep. lol. The kids were now excited AND on a sugar buzz so I got up and fed them, showered them then ran aq to Dr.

By the time we got back it was almost lunch. We ate lunch then played outside with Bear’s new soccer goal. It was a pleasant way to spend the afternoon though zq was having a rough day.

Bq had invited friends over tomorrow last minute so I ended up staying home trying to clean the house (when all I wanted to do was be with my Bear or even lay down & feel sorry for myself) while he took the kids to the movies. When they got back we had sheppards pie at Bear’s request for dinner. He then lit his own candles on his ice-cream cake (well coconut ice-cream GF CF homemade cake). It was very cute. He was very happy with it. He had taken BQ up to the bedroom for some one on one time earlier in the day so after dinner he took me upstairs and we played Chinese checkers. It was lovely. I love when I get alone time with one of the kids. They are so much fun one on one.

We wrapped up the day by trying the new mini-golf course that is down the road from us. Bear had a great day and was a happy little Bear when I put him to bed.

The shot: I was nervous about the cut on my head from the beach umbrella that I got hit by while on vacation. My head is still really sore and my neck has been killing me. (This was one of those lovely heavy old wooden umbrellas that hit me with one of the rusty old spokes right on the top of my head with an impact strong enough to make me see stars and feel nauseous. I swear I felt my spine compress too.) I got to thinking that I could just get a tetanus shot so I wouldn’t have to worry about it. Well, what a mistake. I got the shot and the nurse goes “Well that’s odd”. NOT what you want to hear from a nurse who has just administered something nasty into your system. I was surprised she had done anything. I hadn’t felt a thing so I inquired as to what she thought was odd. She said it just went in weird, no blood or anything. OK. Well at this point I am just pleased I didn’t feel it. So she gets busy then leaves the room to prepare Cali’s shots. It is at this point I feel a warm sensation start from the inoculation site and spread rapidly throughout my body. I think this is probably normal until I start to feel REALLY bad. I sit down as fainting seems very likely. When the nurse comes back in she is shocked and runs for apple juice. She says “you’ve really lost all colour are you ok?” I drink apple juice thinking “no I really am not OK” but aq has to have her shots now so I have to pull it together. I manage to get home and make it through the day very carefully. By 10pm I barely make it home from mini-golf when my system explodes. I purge all fluids from my body from every orifice and feel pretty awful. That went on for a while and now I feel weak, tired, my head and joints are killing me and I keep getting weird nerve twitches in my legs and down my back. I am really just noting this all in-case I get worse and want to remember how this started. Omg my head really hurts.